How the ideas evolved

Anil K Rajvanshi

On my thirteenth (13^th) birthday in 1963 I was given an autobiography of Mahatma Gandhi as a present. Reading this book (it was in Hindi) completely changed my life. I became obsessed with it and read it continuously - in the process neglecting my studies and other activities. His early years simply caught hold of my imagination and there arose a great desire to know about the religions of the world. How this leap took place I don’t remember but it must have been triggered by reading Gita since this was Gandhiji’s favorite book. I therefore embarked on the journey of reading all the religious books that I could get from the local library - Gita, Koran, Bible, Rigveda, Upanishads, Patanjali Yoga, Vivekchudamani, etc. As can be imagined, how much can you absorb at age of 13 or 14, but the desire for reading all these books was intense.

Together with the reading came the desire to practice some of the things that Gandhiji did. Thus I became totally vegetarian, started eating mostly boiled food and also started meditating. Meditation was done as described in Ramakrishna Paramhansa’s biography. The meditation, which sometimes lasted one and half to two hours, produced feelings and wonderful dreams. I started meditating on my heart and visualizing that it contains a small earthen lamp. This resulted in a tremendous feeling of love and good feelings for everybody. If I remember correctly this must have lasted for a month or so but I got frightened by the experience and hence stopped the heart meditation. I tried repeating the same meditation many years later on but was never able to duplicate the experience of love.

Some of the vivid dreams I remember were:

1. I am running in the courtyard of our house in our village and a bright beam of light descends from the sky and hits my right side. My face and shoulder are totally engulfed by it. There was no fear - just a feeling of well being.
2. In another dream I saw a firebreathing dragon which would have killed me. I immediately recited the name of Lord Shiva. He appeared and gave me a bow and arrow by which I killed the dragon.

I am sure both these dreams may have been influenced by some of the movies on holy people that I saw as a child.

3. One dream was really strange. I saw my younger brother and myself all alone in a desert. The skies suddenly opened up and a beam of light bathed us both. But besides the light I also heard a wonderful music which I later identified as one of the Beethoven’s symphonies. Since at the age of 13 or 14, I had no access to western classical music hence this dream was something very strange.
4. One dream was of an out of body experience where I am in the battlefront and "killed". However the "I" still remains and it could go anywhere and pass through walls and obstacles.
5. Another dream showed the formation of galaxies in an egg shaped envelope, which was really fantastic and psychedelic and could have come out of almost any science fiction movie.

Those types of dreams continued even later and there was a time when I continuously had dreams of having discussions about the future of India with leaders like Mao, Trotsky, Lenin and above all with Gandhiji. There were many dreams with Gandhi. In one strange dream he even merged in to my body!

The whole idea behind writing this is to tell the readers that these events did remain at the back of the mind and did help in preparation of my mind for the work outlined in the present book. In fact it goes to show that once the mind gets prepared then it can tune into the relevant dimension space and can start getting knowledge.

Such knowledge did come out of the blue one day. I was doing my research for Ph.D. at University of Florida, Gainesville in the area of thermal applications of solar energy. After lunch I was walking back to my office when suddenly a thought came that gravity and human thought are somehow related. The idea (which occurred in later part of 1977) was so powerful and it caught hold of my mind so much that for next 4-5 months I could not concentrate on anything but this. That this idea came suddenly and was so powerful convinced me that it was true - otherwise it could not have come. Obviously I can be charged with delusional thinking but the idea seemed true that day and even today after almost 25 years later on. I am sure my readings on gravity and attendance of lectures on cosmology at the University must have helped, but the idea came in a flash. This single idea has propelled me to undertake this project of mind/matter interaction and hence it can be said that what I present in this book is distillation of all such experiences that I have had in my life.

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